Summer 2026 • By Justin Carlson
The Shape of Beauty

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Why Bother? Because right now, there is someone out there with a wound in the exact shape of your words. 

― Sean Thomas Dougherty

You want to give up.

You've been at this for so long, and today is one of those days you question everything.

Am I really an artist?

Do I have what it takes?

Am I a fraud?

You spin in a familiar vortex grasping for something solid — anything that will reestablish your heart in the reality you've worked so hard to shape. You want relief. You want to glide your fingers across the cool grass of green pastures. To fix your attention on the sound of still waters -- the slow current that quiets the noise of self-doubt.

You stare at your calloused hands, paint still under your nails, certain you've known beauty's weight. These hands have hung patiently by your side, charged with a childlike wonder that sees beyond the frame. These hands have moved frantic and focused across the surface, sure of their reverence.

But today, these hands are uncertain, frozen. This is too hard!

You believe whole-heartedly in what you are doing. You want others to see it, to behold it. And this is not a solitary act but one full of invitation. A communal imagination. A chaotic benediction charged with grace and truth.

You expect more. More people to see it. More people to celebrate it. To share it.

Well....one person does see it. A person with a wound in the exact shape of your words. In a particular moment in time, you give language to a longing. You offer a glimpse of hope. You then remember that the work of new creation is particular, resonating in a real beating heart -- a kind of participation that transcends mere metrics.

Is success or greater visibility a bad thing? Of course not! Greater success does not necessarily equate to a lack of concern for that one person. We should share our work as broadly as we can. But a preoccupation with numbers can undermine the intimacy found in a shared wound. A person laughed, cried, danced, or exhaled because of your work. What a holy gift.

The human heart is a beautiful thing, unmatched in its complexity and mystery, and if your work reminds it to keep beating, you have done your job. You are successful. ︎



—Justin Carlson, Orein ‘24.

Of Lexington, KY, Justin Carlson is a writer, musician, photographer, and the founder/director of Beauty Table.

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